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My last words...

2009-07-18T21:36:00.002+08:00

Uhm, nothing. I just feel like writing a blog at this very moment. There are lots of thoughts in my mind yet I can pick a single one to start this journal. I cannot utter the thought I want to pick up in my mind. Argh!! I feel so annoyed of myself. Maybe I’ll start it this way.

Life has finally slapped me awake. I finally realized the other emotions around that are waiting for me to enjoy. Letting go, moving on and getting over has never felt so smooth neither easy. But like what I’ve said, it is on us on how we take it. Life isn’t perfect for many of us, yet we still can feel it perfect depending on how we enjoy it. It has lots of things to offer, lots of options and choices and each time we choose, we also took the risk of falling and being hurt so deeply. I can't seem to find my place in this world,no matter how hard I try,no matter how much I give,I always end up alone..and unhappy. I guess until now I have not learned the gift of true and unconditional love..to love someone to the fullest without expecting the same in return..to love and make sacrifices even if it means giving up your own happiness for the sake of your love one..to love and let go if freedom is the only way for them to have the best in life. No,still I am blinded by mere possesiveness,selfishness and greed. For I can only be loved truely when I learn to love myself..I still have a very long way to go..a journey to conquer...

As of now, I am enjoying my life with other things. I found the happiness of my heart in the other options of life. Maybe they are right, they are right that it’s not yet the right time for me to be in love. Who knows? And no one can ever really say so. I am still immature at times, yet I view the points of life maturely so I can go smoothly with the flow. Why would I hinder the flow with such efforts if I can softly feel the warmth of emotions in life?

I feel fine now. I think this is kinda piffle. I’ve written a lot ‘bout my heart. I just want to spill out some thoughts in my mind and feel carefree to utter what’s in my heart. This will be my last post for now on. Please dont keep asking me to update my blog anymore.

Aloha ! ! I'm back ! !

2009-02-15T18:35:00.006+08:00

Finally I’m able to stand on my own two feet, clearing my head from all aches and pains from the past; I’m now taking steps towards a better life. This is my new beginning. I won’t let things drag me down anymore. YOU HEAR THAT WORLD!? I will press on. As long as I have determination I can do anything I ever hoped for. Of course I’m still hurting and memories still make me cry, but I’ve realized I can’t forget everything, and that if I did, it would certainly be a mistake. The past made me who I am, if not for what I’ve experienced so far in life who knows what type of person I’d be. I’m still developing emotionally and mentally, so I can’t stand before you today and tell you who I am- for I’m just finding out myself. Suddenly I’ve discovered a new me who’s not afraid to face the cold world with clenched fists AND an open heart, still smiling even though it hurts. Pain may be non-ceasing, and hope can fade fast, but with your support I know I can embrace life and hold on tight.

Not too long ago I wasn't actually living; or rather, I merely existed, doing the same thing day in – day out. I finally realized why I was that way. I had no goal for my life. I was never happy with my life and that is only because I choose not to be happy with it. I realized that you can’t sit on your ass waiting for happiness. It’s out there; you just have to put the effort into finding it. Happiness isn’t easy, but then again what in this world is easy now ‘a days? To me, it’s one of those things that are worth fighting for…

Recently I broke off a serious and long term relationship because I wasn’t ready to tie myself up (I know that is crudely put, but it’s the truth). I have so much life to experience yet; starting a family right now would be a regret later down the road. I don’t want to live my life regretting anything. Regret only causes second thoughts, and the last thing I would want is something to fall apart because of a regret I had. Life without love is harsh, but the reality of it all is that I’ll learn and grow from this.

I know I have a lot of learning about life to do before I can even consider myself to have an ounce of wisdom; and yet I like to think myself wiser than most young guy at my age. I’ve been through a lot in my life that made me grow up a bit more quickly than my peers. But that’s a story for another day.

Absence of a Lunatic...

2009-02-02T23:16:00.002+08:00

There’s so many places
With such little time
Let me in your heart, love
I miss you, I cry.

Don’t leave me
Don’t abandon me
Don’t let me be stranded
I’m becoming
A victim of my own mind

Self mutilation
Self hatred
Pity, shame..
Don’t suppress me to these choices

I’m numb
I’m distant
You’re so far away
I’m breathless.. You’re gone
You’re too late

Saving me now
Saving me from myself
You didn’t make it…
My world is taken

Taken by evil
Taken by darkness..
The lunatic inside me
I’ve set him free

You’ll live on
I’ll still be with you
I still miss you
I still cry.

The emptiness is almost whole
The numbness almost felt.
You just didn’t love me enough…
To run through it all..

Your slain wrists
A product of my absence?
Do you cry now, love?
Do you still reminisce?

Does my absence bring tears to your eyes?
The absence of a lunatic…

falling down...

2009-01-19T13:22:00.001+08:00

stuff happens. but while some stuff goes away forever, some stays forever. you never will know when that pain will go away, but when it does its as if a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. but while that pain is there, it is living HELL it doesn't matter what you do even if you're happy, it will be there. even in literal terms,people move on but one will stay behind. and that one is me. if i never loose myself, i might be able to survive. but it feels as if i'm slipping off this mountain i call my life, except, i'm going backwards, instead of falling forwards into the cold waters of grief, i fall backwards not knowing what to expect, or what to hold onto.....

Letting go...

2009-01-11T19:34:00.002+08:00

Getting rid of friends who are horrible to you is never a good feeling. Especially when you know it has to be done, even though you have shared a long past together. Some things aren't worth fixing. It's not worth fixing if the people you care about hurt you all the time and then somehow manage to turn it around onto you, if they leave you out of everything they do together, if they look annoyed when you bump into each other. It's these things that hurt the most, and then you realise they aren't your friends anymore. And I think in the long run that makes it easier to let go, because if they hurt you that much they can't have cared about you all that much to begin with.

I'm not a horrible person, I don't do bad things to make them treat me this way, they just do. It's sad, because I was always there for them when they went through bad times. Always. I have my mood swings, but so do they. They swing themselves that hard they almost rip me apart. But the keyword is almost. I'm now smart enough to know it's time to leave, and hurt enough not to care to stay. Sad but true. If you have friends like these, hear me, they aren't friends...

What would YOU do for your friend ?

2009-01-09T12:49:00.002+08:00

What would YOU do for your friend if he/she was upset, hurt, angry, or unhappy?I ask this because wanted to know how many of you know the answer to this question. If my friend was in some kind of emotional turmoil I probably would be at a loss as to what to do. The first thing I'd think of doing was giving them a hug. But usually hugs aren't sufficient enough.So...what are some thing you'd do for a friend who was suffering from any kind of emotional pain?

invisible...

2009-01-06T13:44:00.004+08:00

Whoever said 'love is blind' is right. You don't see me. You don't hear me. You don't even know I'm there. I want to show you I'm the one for you, but how can I do that when I'm invisible? You follow her like a lost puppy, wandering aimlessly after her. Trying to show her how great you can be. But she doesn't see, for she has the same blindness for you, as you have for me. Is that what love is? One big circle of blindness from one person to another? When you smile at her, I can feel my heart crumble underneath my skin. It's tearing me apart. When you finally notice me, I will be a pile of dirt torn apart and stomped on. But if you look closer, you'll see those foot marks are yours. How can I love the one that hurts me the most? I want to hate you, to feel that anger rise inside of me, my fists clenched. However, when I see you, my heart melts under your beautiful eyes, and my stomach clenches. But you only see her. Her and her short-shorts, not me and my t-shirts. Does popular really beat nice? Does rich really beat poor? Yes, because you just see right through me. I'd like to think fate is on my side but when has it ever been. I am invisible.

too many bad emotions

2009-01-01T18:55:00.003+08:00

I just don't know what to write now. I missed a lot of things lately. I feel strange. It's kind of hard to describe, but it's almost as if I'm not myself anymore. I don't know what's wrong with me but I'm tired of the feelings I get. I'm a really nice guy, you know? But lately all I've ever been is vicious and mean to the people I love, and love me back. I don't want to be this way, but there's just something that brings the fuck out of me. I get pretty angry easily, even for the littlest things and once I'm pissed that means I'm going to treat you like complete shit. It isn't just me though. Sometimes I do have valid reasons to be angry. The thing that bothers me is the fact that I get angry and when someone asks me why, I seriously don't know what to tell them because I have no reason.

I miss my her. All the time. Every second she's not near me. I don't know if that's normal. I love her. I'm in love with her. I just feel that she deserves much better than me. I have too many issues. Whenever she can't be around me, I'm angry. I'm angry at her, at myself, at the whole damn world. I get this overwhelming feeling, and I feel intensely alone. She's the only one that makes things okay again. She makes me so happy. I wish she was here with me. I probably would be laughing right now instead of drowning in my misery. I guess she's the only one that can heal my broken heart. I'm glad to have her but when she's not around, my world turns upside down. I would tell her that, but I feel so embarassed. It's like I depend on her for happiness and I don't want it to be that way. I want to be independent and right now she's my only happiness but everything is over. It's been a week since our break up. I need to stop for awhile. Stop blogging until I finally found myself back again. I'll be back but I don't know when...

Extreme International Autoshow ( final day )

2008-12-29T19:21:00.003+08:00

Congratulations to the winner of the VIP styled category. The winner goes to who???

while waiting for the results....

The Champion goes to Paulson a.k.a Bitrade

The 1st Runner up goes to Alvin a.k.a Googookid

1st Runner up, Champion and 2nd runner up group pics

Googookid, Ong teck wei, Bitrade,Bandrew and Marco

Congratulations to all the winner of

Vip Style Society Malaysia ! ! ! ! !

The Meanest Toyota MR2 in Miri

2008-12-28T20:59:00.010+08:00

I'm quite lazy now to write a whole stories here so i think you see the pictures better because pictures tell a millions of words right?

Today went to esplanade to meet Rabbitx around 5 something then......

on the way, i spotted a Miri registered plate convertible Sylvia..
This should be interesting, wait till Bobby sees this..

How know Lasapka also come to esplanade too... !!!
So better take picture first as this car very rarely seen on the streets leh

Somebody change new shoes wor...

paiseh take his interior pic with my lasap phone..
no flashlights so can't take it so clearly. At least i saw it on my own eyes..hehe

lasapka's wife, lasapka, Rabbitx, Rabbitx's gf and Ah Yaw

Lasapka and Rabbitx there talking about performance while i taking pictures..

So early want go back sure go check got kena Toto or not....

more pics on the MR2

Don't play play ho... this car you can see on the Hypertune Magazine.

So remember when you see this car on street must jio him go race... hehe

Extreme International Autoshow ( 27/12/08 )

2008-12-28T20:00:00.010+08:00

Updated pics from Recca and our Dzeus paparazzi Mishiyan...

Thanks again for the hardwork guys!!!

James's VIP styled Toyota Crown

VIP styled Toyota Estima

Bandrew's VIP styled Toyota Harrier

Finally Marco's VIP styled Toyota Harrier has arrived just in time!!!

VIP styled Mercedes Benz

VIP styled Perodua Myvi converted to Daihatsu Passo

VIP styled BMW..

seriously, i don't think its VIP styled because of the S&F issues and kits

VIP styled Nissan Murano

VIP styled Toyota Alphard

VIP chicks ! ! ! !

KNN ! ! ! Googookid always so syok with the chicks one ! ! !

Extreme International Autoshow ( 26/12/08 )

2008-12-27T19:50:00.016+08:00

The second day of the autoshow.

Thanks for the pics from our Paparazzi Mishiyan and Black Phantom Bandrew.

The throphies...

James Lim's VIP styled Toyota Crown

Googookid's VIP styled Toyota Wish

VIP styled Nissan Murano
Bandrew's VIP styled Toyota Harrier

VIP styled Mercedes CLK

Bitrade's VIP styled Nissan A32

Ledzbling's VIP styled Proton Wira Aeroback

Ong Teck Wei's VIP styled Nissan A32

VIP styled Toyota Alphard

VIP styled Toyota Estima

Definitely can't missed out some of the model's there...

Googookid naughty pose with da G-string.. LOLLedz busying playing PSP.. confirm is FIFA 2008 ! ! hehe..
Some pics of the members....

Do you believe this is a Perodua Myvi?

Yes it is... Damn extreme modification dude!!

some videos to share here......

Extreme International Autoshow ( 25/12/08 )

2008-12-27T19:27:00.006+08:00

I think i need to make a part of these event because it was hell lots of pics and videos to post here. Anyway, thanks to our official paparazzi Mishiyan for sharing with us at the quickest moment. They all started to roll in around 3pm to Bukit Jalil.

Our Booth. Damn it looks like japanese style man... really salute for Marco's work!!!

Members started to clean, stick and polish their rides...

Share videos with you guys here...

Wish you guys good luck ! ! ! ! !

25/12/2008 BBQ on christmas day

2008-12-27T11:42:00.007+08:00

On Christmas Day, we already had earlier prepare for this barbeque thingy.

Eventhough it was raining that day, but it ain't stopping us from craving these food!!

Lazy to type words now.. see the pics for yourselves.

I arrived at ah yaw's house around 6pm and started to help him to prepare the stuff...

Burn baby burn!!!!

I lazy wait for the others so i started myself without waiting them...keke

Just a normal barbeque..... got lamb, pork, chicken wing, chicken franks and crab stick.

At first, their cc are huge but at the end everyone's stopped to eat....

some still eating and some tok koks....

ke fatt that day bring chio gal owh... his gf i think

Ah yung and Ah choi...

yi xiong's wife, yi xiong, ah ming and ????... forgot his name already..

Chee liang and his gf was here too..

that look over here is cacatmoi loh...

I ended up sick on the next day because I ate too much..... LOL

24/12/2008 Christmas eve celebration

2008-12-26T19:36:00.010+08:00

Sorry for my late post because i was waiting for Angel_lina to email me the pictures taken that night. Finally I've got the pics and started update my blog now. Well, that night i was joining my other friends at Hot Spot. Earlier i had phoned and asked where would Rabbitx go later then I'll join them. Actually i wanted to head home because Rabbitx didn't answer my call, but Angel_lina asked me to accompany her because she was lonely. Finally i revealed my face on the public now. I think that Alien ( Boey ) and siao cha bo ( Maggie ) sure will tease me later. Here are some pictures taken by Angel_lina...

Who's that cacat guy? that's me OK....!!!

what are we having? beers of course ! ! !

me and Rabbitx....

We're not gay ok... just a simple brotherhood hug..hehe

Arta and me

Arta, Bobby and me

Arta, Bobby, George and me

me and the leng lui Angel_lina. Seriously, she look georgous that night..

LOL.. sit there also wan take picture of me..haizzz

Angel_lina requested me to make kuwakchai style pose for her..

guess i haven reach till that level yet..keke

Bobby and me

Rachelle dunno the laugh me or what.... LOL

Then Alex the owner of Ming's cafe asked us to stand on the chair..

We were so confused that time.. Whats going on???

He say we were Anti-Social...

i think the contents shouldn't write here for our privacy..hehe

Too bad James didn't joined us. He had missed the fun that night. I bet he had more fun at Singapore there... Actually, there are some gangs i didn't know them yet but it was hell fun. Exchanging gifts and drinking beers. I ended up going home around 2am. Lucky i didn't have to work for the next day. If not, i would not hang out that late too. Thats for tonight guys.. chiao ! ! !

Its Christmas dude ! !

2008-12-24T12:41:00.005+08:00

Well, I wish to express my best season greetings to all readers, family, friends, Miri Community members, Dzeus members and all my bippu friends, it's been a wonderful year indeed. I wish everyone a merry and wonderful Christmas and may your new year be a wonderful ending of 2008, and a great start for 2009... I wish you all the best and to come. Thank you for reading my blog and support me all the time. I really appreciate it.

Dzeus new partner...Original Fake

2008-12-23T11:54:00.004+08:00

If you love Bling Bling Fashion and the latest trend in Tokio, the Original Fake Boutique is just the place and one stop centre to all your fashion needs ya... Fancy the latest the Tokyo Fashion and accessories? Have you done your Christmas shopping yet? Wait no more! The latest Original Fake Boutique has just been launched at the 1 Utama Shopping Centre. If you are an Original Fake fan, I strongly recommend you guys to head on there for your latest fashion and trendy needs. The owner is Bandrew from Black Phantom and he's one of Dzeus new partner now.

Location : 1 Utama 2nd Floor (Bridge between old and new wing)

Big Daddy & The Kustomizer have touched down in Malaysia!

2008-12-22T11:44:00.005+08:00

That's right... the big guy has arrived with his crew - Jacky, Jasmin (yummy!), Roy and Mike aka "Wax Daddy".Recognize the background? Yep... that's our world famous airport KLIA. You can believe it - they are here!

Well, what can we say? Welcome to Boleh land !!!

Why they are here? Well its the largest gathering of Extreme Modified cars in our country. This is so happening now ! ! !

Stadium Putra Bukit Jalil (Indoor)

This coming 26th to 28th Dec 2008

Xtreme International Challenge Categories:

1) National Xtreme Modified Car Challenge - Proton Xtreme- Open Xtreme- K Car Xtreme

2) I.C.E Cun Showdown - Car

3) I.C.E Cun Showdown - Van

4) Best Airbrush

5) Best Sticker

6) Spit-Fire Face Off

7) VIP Category - Sponsored by Diamond Zeus

** Xtreme King of The Road - Best Of The Best (to qualify, a car must win at least 2 Categories)

Challenge Fee: RM200 Per Challenge Category

" Dear readers,

As part of VSSM, Dzeus has confirmed participation with several other Clubs such as Black Phantom and White Stallion. The participation of VSSM is done with the collaboration of Diamond Zeus Boutique which will be later known as J-Lux. In a bid to promote VIP Style in Malaysia to the public, the collaboration between the 3 clubs will bring forthwith 10 cars selected from each club to showcase and also compete against some of the best cars in the world. Apart from showcasing cars, J-Lux will also be managing a booth to cater enquiries on VIP Products and offer services to the public. The VIP Street will be located at the 1st floor of the stadium whereby all Bippu Cars from different organization will be displayed at that specific area for showcasing. As the most anticipated show of the year, we at Dzeus certainly hope that more members can participate in this event and show your support for passion of Bippu Culture.The staff of J-Lux and members of VSSM have sacrificed much of their time to this coming event. We certainly look forward to seeing all of you there!! "

Happy Winter Solstice Day

2008-12-21T19:44:00.004+08:00

I know these days my blog had been a little boring as i didn't know want to post what. Just some normal days what i've been through these few days. Work, eat, sleep and sex ( LOL.. joking )

Today is Winter Solstice Day. Actually, i really don't know how to call it in English as i heard they always called it " Tang Yuan Festival ". Suddenly, Digi has sent me a greeting message and it is written Happy Winter Solstice Day. Ok lo... learn something today. My sister a.k.a my boss, suggested to make glutinous rice balls at shop since there were not much customers at that time. You know what she did? As i know some people may use red bean and yam for the filling but my sis, she put char siew, chicken vegetable, red bean, yam and curry chicken ( all of these are the fillings at my shop that i used to make paus ).. I was just like OMG....... you should know how it would taste with that combination.

I was just curious why is it called Winter Solstice so i started googled to search for some informantion about it. Then i found this...

" If you have ever wondered what makes a solstice a solstice, allow me to explain. Most people understand that Earth rotates on it's axis once every "24" hours and revolves around the sun once in "365" days. But many are not aware of a third relative motion: The Earth's axis tilts forward about 23 degrees for the Northern Hemispheres summer and 23 degrees back for its winter. It is this tilt that causes the seasons. When the Northern Hemisphere is tilting forward, it gets the most direct sunlight for the longest time and produces summer. As we move toward Winter Solstice we get less direct sunlight and less time in the sun.

The line at which the Northern Hemisphere tilts its furthest distance forward is called the Tropic of Cancer. The line at which the Northern Hemisphere tilts furthest back is called the Tropic of Capricorn. The Equator is directly between these two lines. When the sun sits directly over the equator, we are having either our Spring or Autumnal Equinox. "

HAPPY WINTER SOLSTICE EVERYONE ! !! !!!

what is dream?

2008-12-20T19:43:00.003+08:00

Why do we dream? What is the purpose of them? I have had many dreams in my life and I never understand any of them. I can have some really weird dreams, and some not so weird ones, yet I can never understand the true meaning of any of them. Sometimes I can remember dreams I had a long time ago and sometimes I can't remember my dream, I just know I had one. Some people say that if you die in your dream, you die in real life, but how do we know that? How are dreams linked? You can't prove that a dream can kill you. There is supposed to be a reason for everything, but what is it? This is a question I doubt no-one can answer, I just want to understand why our dreams are the way and they are and why they are supposed to be significant in our lives. Maybe it was some long time ago important to dream for some reason, and now it's just some heritage. Maybe it's a way of unconscious thinking, contrary to conscious way of thinking. It must be the way human brain works. I believe it is directly connected to sleeping, as a way of relieving some parts of brain. But more simple answer would be that life is more fun with dreams.

Past is Past

2008-12-19T21:22:00.004+08:00

There's a saying "Past is Past" In which most people would say if there's a memory that must be forgotten and would somehow start a new. But if that particular memory is just a life changing, one it can't just be forgotten in a flash.

I've had regrets in my past for not doing this or I should have done this and that. Then this would have never occurred to me in the present times. Whenever I had time for myself to reflect on, its like I'm just staring at one point as if I'm spaced out and just suddenly memories just flashes back whether it was good or bad. When bad memories occurs I usually ended up shaking my head sideways, it's like I'm saying to myself "get out of my mind", "leave me alone" and "I don't want to remember this anymore". Sometimes spacing out makes my mind filled with imagination daydreaming and wondering with the "what if" question on my head and would start imagining some events then suddenly a snap back to reality.

"Past is Past" easier said than done. No matter how hard I try to forget an event, it would just automatically come back to me when something reminds me of it. I'm just so amaze with our minds, we may have the feeling of that we already forgot something, it could be from childhood days or simply time just let us forget it, but everything is in our minds that we just never thought of.

You know you've gone VIPnuts when...

2008-12-19T12:24:00.006+08:00

You know you're poisoned to the deep end of VIPness when you:

1. Scraping in front of a crowd but u feel proud instead of paiseh

2. Take a full 10 minutes to cross that little curb entering the car park

3. Broke a kit and proud to display it (from riding too low)

4. Curbed wheels from running stretch tires

5. And the list goes on...

They're using coilover instead of airs... I was just wondering if i was going with this kind of low stance, where would i drive in Miri? Even a bump also can't go through ! ! !

one of the cool songs these days..

2008-12-17T20:18:00.006+08:00

These song is one of my favourite now.. the lyrics are very touching.

Heard it a lot of times and this been aired at every radio station and channel now.

Akon's songs getting better and better now.

It's been so long that
I haven't seen your face
I'm Tryna be strong
But the strength
I have is washing away
it wont be long before i get you by my side
And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you
Tell you what's been on my mind

I wanna make up right now na na
I wanna make up right now na na
Wish we never broke up right now na na
we need to link up right now na na

I wanna make up right now na na
I wanna make right now na na
Wish we never broke up right now na na
we need to link up right now na na

Girl I know, mistakes were made between us two
And we show our ass that night
even said somethings weren't true
why'd you go and haven't seen my girl since then
why can't it be the way it was
cause you were my homie, lover and friend

I wanna make up right now na na
I wanna make up right now na na
Wish we never broke up right now na na
we need to link up right now na na

I wanna make up right now na na
I wanna make up right now na na
Wish we never broke up right now na na
we need to link up right now na na

I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Till i get you back I'm gonna Try
Yes I miss you much
You are the apple of my eye
Girl I miss you much I miss you much

I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Tell I get you back I'm gonna Try
Yes I miss you much
Yes you are the apple of my eye
Girl I miss you much I miss you much

I wanna make up right now na na
I wanna make up right now na na
Wish we never broke up right now na na
we need to link up right now na na

I wanna make love right now na na
I wanna make love right now na na
Wish we never broke up right now na na
we need to link up right now na na

I want you to fly with me
want you to fly
I miss how you lie with me
miss how you lie
Just wish you could dine with me
wish you could dine with me
One that would grind with me
One that would grind with me

I want you to fly with me
want you to fly
I miss how you lie with me
Ohh miss how you lie
Just wish you could dine with me
wish you could dine
One that would grind with me
Ohh One that would grind

I wanna make up right now na na
I wanna make up right now na na
Wish we never broke up right now na na
we need to link up right now na na

I wanna make up right now na na
I wanna make up right now na na
Wish we never broke up right now na na
we need to link up right now na na

Everything isn’t perfect....

2008-12-17T09:56:00.003+08:00

Everything isn’t perfect as the saying goes nobody is perfect. But then we can all feel the perfection of life when we are happy and satisfied of what we have. We can always crave for such things, but the question is, can it all make us happy? Life is what we make it. Many would say that there are lots of complications in life, but the fact is that life is so simple; it is us who make it complicated. Life didn’t asked us to live it, LOVE it and you’ll eventually know how to live it with satisfaction. Life can be so wonderful if we’d want to. It is always up to us on how we can satisfy ourselves.

Let me share you my story. I found a bit of the perfection in life in simple things, SIMPLE YET SO MEANINGFUL. I’ve said that it was just a bit because I am still on the process of hitting the goals of victory, and of course it is all for those who believes in my confidence and loves me for who I am and who I cannot be. I found the happiness and contentment in the love of my family. The affection that bounds each of the members of the family made my contentment. It is just recently that I realized my worth to this clan. I was really a problem child and rebellious son before. I was so numb and insensitive that I didn’t see my value to those who truly love me. I am happy at this very moment, but then I can’t avoid myself wondering if I am really worthy and deserving of the things I have in me now. I feel overwhelmed of the love given to me but sometimes and would give traffic in my head, then start to question the things around if I deserve these all. I am on the process of my learning the arts of living. Everything can be so wonderful in life, depending on our points of view on it.

Now, I feel confused of the things that bother my mind. I made a decision and made up my mind; I made a commitment to life or maybe myself. Hmm, I did this for those who love me, especially my parents. It’s not to be revealed in here, kinda personal matter. Hmm, I will give my best efforts to attain fulfillment for this. Sacrifice? No, not really. No one forced me to have this; I made up this decision on my own. Like what I’ve said, I can be happy with other things around, especially with the clan I belong.There are lots of things I need to learn. It is still a long way for me to go, time for me to give back the love of my parents. I dedicate all the things and hardships I am taking to them. They are my inspiration for the fighting spirit I have. I’ve fallen’ in love so deep with the life I am living now. Some may say that there are lots of imperfections in my life, but then I feel contented and happy, that’s why I can proudly say that LIFE IS PERFECT.We all cannot avoid the throes around, but that’s a part of life that we should also love. I’ve learned how to love it and take it as a challenge to make me stronger as I get nearer to my goal. No words can be uttered from my lips to express the happiness I have now.

I know that there are also some who won’t believe my happiness because they know me as someone who cannot forget easily. Yeah, I haven’t forgotten the things I’ve been through, the throes I’ve suffered and the anguish I felt. But then, I just finally learned and realized the other emotions surrounding me, waiting for me to feel them. That’s what I have now. I know that slowly, second by second, I can eventually have in my hand the goal and victory I’ve been longing for, that eventually I can complete the answers for my living in this realm. In just a blink of an eye, lots of things may change. For now, I’ll stay this way, just focusing on the things I have now and working to reach the fulfillment I ever wanted since then.

Congratulations to Dzeus ! ! !

2008-12-15T11:23:00.012+08:00

I would like to congratulate to all Winners of Full Throttle Klang Show. This is the first time three clubs from Black Phantom, White Stallion and Dzeus combined forces under the heading VIP Style Society MALAYSIA participated in an autoshow. What I can say that the team from VSSM indeed put up a great show from day till night. Cars were all displayed professionally and its really for the first time I think, outshined the models there. The selection of cars were done properly so as to reflect a proper theme to the overall presentation. A total of 2 black, 2 whites and a silver making a total 5 covering about 500 sq feet of area with 16 queue stands and 60 feet of divider!! I'm really proud to be part of the club.

Dzeus would also like to express their sincere gratitude to the members who came and support the club (Inamoto, Recca, Mishiyan & Friends) not only on Saturday but both the days till Sunday. "Thank you for staying with us tho the 1st day was a little slow due to the rain, nonetheless your presence provided us some uuummmph!! Well we hereby announce the winners below! Congratulations again guys! "

Best VIP Style Category

CHAMPION

Bandrew

Runner-Up

Bidtrade

1st Runner-Up

Ong Teck Wai

Best I.C.E Category

CHAMPION

googookid

Runner-Up

Bidtrade

1st Runner-Up

ledzbling

Best Car Club goes to VSSM!!!! History in the making!!

headache now...

2008-12-14T12:19:00.004+08:00

Where will you go with this kind of height?

going to adjust it back........ LOL ! !

Is it worth living?

2008-12-13T19:13:00.003+08:00

Life how confusing and useless it can be. You don’t want to be here but at the same time you want to keep living to see what is going to happen right now. I’m feeling like I want to die and you know what? I don’t think that it’s wrong to think about death or to wish for deaths kiss to brush your lips. It’s cold lips on yours that are so warm and full of life but not for long right? No not for long because death is the thing that you yearn for and you feel like you could stop at nothing until you get what you want...which is to never draw another breath...to never see the sunset or rise again...to not stay up all night looking at the stars on the roof of your house...you don’t want to do anything...but maybe go to bed and never wake up which is the same as dieing isn’t it...?

Dzeus Fan Signs

2008-12-13T13:13:00.006+08:00

It's now the end of the year, school holidays, Christmas, New Year...definitely the month worth celebrating and have fun for so Googookid started something in the forum to show our love to Dzeus by posting up our very unique FAN SIGNS there. Be it Big or small, colourful or non, on a piece of paper or any part of your body, photoshop, just say out loud that you guys LOVE Dzeus!!! Well these are some members who post their very own FAN SIGNS. I think some members haven't know this thread yet. It's really fun sometimes they will think of something to express how loyal are you to the club. Lets see the pictures below....

Daring Googookid show his face with his FAN SIGN..

Emi from Chiba, Japan. She is our only japanese girl member.

Seriously, she is really damn KAWAII ! ! !

One of the supporter and friends of Dzeus, Ms Nicole Yong..

This is from our Tok Kok King, HawkerJack..

I gotta admit that he's really hilarious all the time.. haha!!

Austin Mini from Mishiyan...

This dog is really cute.. from Kenzzz

Fan Signs from Andrian.. the chicks not bad ya..

Where's my Fan Sign?

hehehehe... my Fan Sign not bad right?

At least Googookid keep staring it for awhile..

(if you're reading this don't ban me yeah) kekekeke!!!!

The Meanest Honda Civic EG8 in Miri

2008-12-12T11:30:00.005+08:00

Never forget this famous Pink Lady in Miri here. I know you're reading my blog now and don't get shocked if I posted your ride here..hehe! Well, this car is owned by one of my buddies who is studying in Australia now. You know how I missed the old days dude! Waiting you to come back next year!! Its rolling on 19" , the 1st scissor doors with wide bodykits is a very awesome modification. Actually I got lots of pictures of this ride but I choose the nicest one to put in here. Where's the car now? Can't see it roaming in the streets these days... that would still remain secret. For me this is the nicest EG modification in Miri. Don't get touched ok? hehehe....

Upper pictures is the 1st modification for the past few years ago and famously name the " Pink Lady"... and below is the newest modification...

You should know whose hand is this man..hahaha!!

Love theme all around the car!!!!

Speak but can't read..

2008-12-11T21:32:00.004+08:00

Some people who say that don’t know how to read Chinese but yet you're a Chinese that's called BANANA. OK... I admit I only know how to speak but I don't know how to read nor write Chinese. In my childhood, I playing truant during on the Chinese classes so that's why I'm like this now. Regret? Nah... Because that time I talk majority English with my friends. Now I get along with my friends who talks Chinese so now my English a little bit lagging... Found a song represents me now. hehehe...

The Meanest Kancil in Miri

2008-12-11T12:03:00.003+08:00

I haven't got the chance to take the picture of the ride so I grabbed some pictures in the other website. So far this is the most nicest kancil I have ever seen in Miri. When Sobo told me who owns the ride, then I realised that I knew the owner too. Rolling on 17" 6.5jj is really damn big for a kancil. As you know these custom made widebody kits are the owners handwork. Just curious how does a kancil rolling on those big rims and heavy kits? Even if it's a Mira Turbo engine still does not enough power right?

the front part really looks fierce...

this widebody does reminds me one of the Japanese K-car ride..

noticed that the rear bumper was using Myvi SE bumpers.. quite cute right?

thumbs up for the owner!!!

I'm a moderator now!

2008-12-10T19:59:00.004+08:00

WOW!! Today I am very surprise to find out that I've suddenly become a Moderator at Diamond Zeus VIP car club. Actually this was not the first time experience for me as i was a moderator before in my previous club " VIP Dream Club" but i just felt shock by the decision from the site admin. Googookid that time already told me he's going to select me as a moderator and in charge of the Miri area. This is a good news for me and i hope i could do something to contribute the club.

the keys of life...

2008-12-09T09:11:00.005+08:00

Damn.. I'm lohso in the morning now. Bear with me please because I'm kind of free and my mind is full of things to write. I have experienced a lot in my life for my age and I know everyone experiences the bad and good, but I have experienced very drastic measures on both sides. Some points in my life everything has seemed to work out, and I had many people and an environment that was trustworthy and loving. Other times I have lived in the complete opposite were I have had to deal with a very hateful environment. A dog eat dog world, were people would backstab you just to get some popularity status.

I have to say though that I do not regret experiencing any of these experiences, because they have made me who I am today. There are three very important "key points to life" that I have gathered throughout my experiences, and they are...

1. Always stay true to yourself- When I say this I mean never sell your self out, and always be yourself. Sometimes life will push you towards "fitting in", but if you feel that you "fitting in" is forcing you to change who you are, then don't do it. It sometimes may be easier to just give in and join the crowd but individuality is a very special thing, and it will in the end benefit you in many ways.

2. Never give up- If you have a goal, go for it! If you are willing to work hard enough you can achieve anything. People respect people that keep on pushing through, and in the end you will always get what you want. Sometimes we just want our dreams to fall in our laps, but they don't. You have to work for them, and for many of them you have to work hard.

3. Enjoy life and live it to the fullest- Life is a great and beautiful thing, and sometime you just need to stop and smell the roses. Learn to appreciate the small things in life, and you will be that much happier and appreciative then ever before. Life is too short to get caught up in the stupid stuff, so just enjoy every minute of it. Also live your life to the fullest. Maybe there is an afterlife or we are reincarnated and if there is/we are that's great. But why take the chance? Accomplish all your dreams and aspirations and live life how you want too! That way if there is an afterlife or we are reincarnated then you will only be like "sweet round two!", lol.

I believe that if you live by these three key points then you will find happiness within your self, the people around you, and the beautiful world that surrounds us all. I'm glad to be back as normal now.

Only time will tell...

2008-12-07T19:19:00.004+08:00

Only time will tell where i am headed. only time will tell who i am or what i am to become. only time will heal my broken heart. how was i supposed to know that it would hurt as much as it did. i miss her so. never look back i always hear people say. but its looking forward that i find the most difficult to do. first times are always the most remembers able one and their always the ones that hurt the most. but time will heal my fragile heart. no matter the consequences i will make it. yes my heart is fragile and yes love will be a thing i shy away from. but i must not be afraid to be who i am and what makes me who i am. love is a beautiful thing once you find it. and its hard to turn away from and even harder to let go of. i hope that one day love will find me in the rough. i will stop writing for awhile because i need some time to cool out my mind. i found a nice song that catches my mood now. thanks for the comments everyone...

risky but it's worth to do so..

2008-12-06T20:32:00.004+08:00

How many people that read this have felt TRUE LOVE? A love that completely surrounds you like a blanket? Tell me- when you close your eyes can you picture a perfect moment with them? Can you smell their scent and feel contentment? Can you feel there hand hold yours at the mere thought of it? I can every single time I wish.

Before I go to far, I have said some hurtful things, that I regret. If she does not return to me, then that is her choice. But she swears that she shall, that I should trust her, and I will. Wholeheartedly. I have too. I have second guessed her since the moment she went out with her friends and left me alone. If I do not show faith in her, then what good is anything I have done? I showed no faith in her on numerous occasions, and that is one of my faults, and I know has to do with her distancing herself from me at times.

Part of the problems we have endured are many. Including family members( on my sides), have conspired to keep us apart. That is too long to get into how and why, and I think will remain private.Their treachery will be dealt with in time whether she returns or not. I know that her being gone has not diminished my love for her, and has in fact grown by leaps and bounds.

Will she come back and be my baby? I must believe she will. I have to. Because if I don't have faith in her, then I don't love her. But I do love her, so I will show full confidence in her. For those of you that are young (god saying that makes me feel old), and in the beginning stages where it's all happy happy, just wait until pain becomes involved. Then look into her or his eyes and see how committed you are. Love is not just bliss, and great sex, and huge smiles. The greater part of love is when your apart, or tragedy happens, when things are not so great, then see how committed you are. When you feel like your having a heart attack, when you cry relentlessly, when you just want to throw your hands up and say fuck it all, maybe even say it, when you suffer, but you stay instead. I grew up in a no dad family- My dad passed away when i was 4 years old and i grew up with 7sisters and my mom. I'm used to it.

As long as she has love in her heart for me, then I cannot and will not abandon her. EVER. Am I a fool? Am I blinded by love? Am I a hopeless romantic dreamer? Perhaps. Time will tell. But I think it's worth to do so...

broken hearted...

2008-12-06T11:42:00.003+08:00

As I sit here at my shop now and wonder to myself where did it all go wrong. I really can't answer that question simply because if I search for the answer, I only find something else that went wrong before that so it really is a endless circle of sadness with a few touches of happiness along the way. I hope that you enjoy my blog which is written from the heart. I found a lovely poem that manage to catch what I feel right now...

I hate that
I love you so much
Cause
Even when you are around
I still feel the emptiness all over us

I wish that
I can turn back the time
Cause
Even we are together
I still have doubts towards you

I am sick of pretending
Cause
Even I mention everything was alright
It was not okay

I will still ask more
Cause
Even when you said you had gave me the best
I do not feel it

I pray that you can understand the loneliness of me
Cause
Even you cared about me
I still feel lonely

I am very sensitive to whatever your harsh words
Cause
Even when you said it was a small issue
I bruise easily now

I am not strong
Cause
Even you will give me everything you have
I will keep on crying

true freedom

2008-12-05T11:37:00.004+08:00

Everyone has though moments in their life where they just want to pick up their bags and drive off into the sunset. Having no responsibilities, boring routines, and no commitments that tie you down. Something we like to call true freedom. To just go out and get the things you want in life. Whether it is to find true love, to travel the world, or just to get to white castle. No worries, no one telling you what to do, your your own man (or woman) and the world has endless opportunities for you. As an 23 year old, I get this feeling a lot. Where I just want to get out and live life to the fullest. Sometimes I just want to hoop into my car and drive, and see where life takes me. Maybe it will just be a corner of a highway, needing money for gas, but at least then I did it, I "took the plunge". It's in the heart and soul of everyone to want to explore, learn, and discover what life is all about. Just try to grasp the concept of life, and take in every inch of its beauty. As a "young adult" I find parents try to protect us from the pains of life, and I understand why, but its necessary. How are we supposed to learn from our mistakes, if we don't make them. How are we supposed to appreciate the good things in life if we never experience the bad things. You learn from these things, and they shape who you are. "No pain, no gain". Have you ever meet one of a spoiled rich kids, and are not they always snotty, impolite, and selfish? Do you ever wonder why they are like that? It's because their parents have sheltered them from everything bad in life, and gave them everything they wanted, without working for it. They don't appreciate what they got. It's scary to leave your comfort bubble, but so many times I have started something completely new to me, with having nerves and anxiety when I started it. But once I got comfortable in it It became a enjoyable part of my life, and I meet great, amazing people from it. I know that everyone gets this feeling, and we all need to embrace it, instead of hiding it, because we feel embarrassed. We all have the same "secret" emotional feelings, and I think our world would be a lot of a better place if we just embraced these feeling, instead of shunning things like freedom and individuality, and help each other achieve our deepest desires in life that we all have. Ain't I'm kinda loso today huh?

going back with my own life

2008-12-04T22:16:00.002+08:00

Just come back from an argument from her. Well, I've got nothing to say here just let it be. Been through to my previous post and I just think that was it all worth? Hell, I think that I was wasting my own time keep moody all the time. WTF.. where's the old cacatkia? Damn, I'm gonna get back to my own life rather than thinking all the shit of her. Seems like her friends are more important than me now so I just let her be. I don't need her to accompany me either. Even though today was my birthday, but I never think off celebrate it anyway. Just like another day for me... Now no need carlsberg, I'm also damn happy!!! This song is specially for her..hahahahaha!! Oh yeah.. for those keypo people who wanna tell her what I write here, just go ahead cause I don't give a FUCK anymore...

today is my day!!!

2008-12-04T19:09:00.004+08:00

Yeap.. today is my birthday. Thanks to Miri Community members , Diamond Zeus VIP club members and friends from friendster for the wishes. I really appreciate it! Even though I was a little moody today but when I read those wishes from you guys, I felt lighten up again. In the other hand, I would like to wish a happy birthday to two pretty girls that was celebrating their birthday on the same day. Born in a same date but different year.

Angeline from Penang. She's the queen of VIP Dream Club.

Jenny Yen from Miri. She's cute...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANGELINE, JENNY YEN & ME! ! ! !

tough days...

2008-12-03T22:33:00.003+08:00

I don't know whether to post this or not but I felt that my distance between her was so far and I'm really tired to chase it back again. I'm tired of all this shit coming to me now. Get used to pretend what I'm not for a long time and it was so devastated. I think I should stop right here...cause I don't know want to write what anymore. Just found a song that was suitable for me now. Just hope tomorrow will be a good day for me and I'll not celebrate my birthday. Thanks for everyones wishes. Better off to bed now...

thanks!!!

2008-12-03T20:03:00.003+08:00

Today I was really shocked to recieve a present from Angel_lina when I was working at my shop.. We we're chatting at MSN during noon time and told her bout my birthday tomorrow but I didn't knew she would bought a present for me. That really gave me a big surprise! Then just now I've just recieved a birthday wishes sms from Florence. She said she can't wait for 12am to send me a birthday wishes so she sent earlier to me. Anyway, I really appreciate all of it!!! Thanks!!!

I have no idea how did Angel_lina knew I like to read quotes and she got me this one!!

and a birthday card.. awww... I'm so touched!!!

I haven recieved this kind of card for a long time!!

just trying relax now...

2008-12-03T12:16:00.006+08:00

So today I’m going to start something new. I have always cared for the people within my life. People have always come and gone in a way that from the start of my life. I don’t have any of the same friends. Yes of course, I know that this is usual. I feel as though there should be one person within my life who is still there, other than my family at least. I have always been a passionate person with anything I do, and I have never held that back when it comes to my friends. I’m starting to get the idea that when it comes to friends, it’s never really what it supposed to be. No matter how good a friend is, sooner or later you’re going to disappoint them and they will disappoint you. I have always relied on my friends to be there for me, even to tell me when I’m wrong. Most of the time, they never do. Maybe, it’s because I’m hard headed with some things, and I just need to learn from my mistakes. But I feel as thought I want my friends to know what I'm feeling about what they're doing. Everything, or most of the time I have said truthful things it has always came back to bite me in the ass. It’s not like I'm telling strangers what to do with their life. I know these people for years, then they do something totally stupid with their life. Everyone else just says, oh well its their life. But I feel as thought because I'm their actual friend so I should tell them. And it always never helps.

So as I was chatting to a pretty good friend last night about all of this in MSN. His amazing point to me was just don’t care. Don’t care about what stupid things people are doing and don’t care about shit. I know this works a lot of the times. But I feel as though it would take away from friendship. What is this person who I talk to if I don’t care and they don’t care? That’s just like a drunk conversation at a bar with a perfect stranger, it means nothing.

So I stuck between these paths of emotion. Should I just not care at all about the things that people do. Or should I be there for my friends if something good has been established between us. My whole life I have lived in the way of trying to tell people what I really feel. So I going to do the hardest thing a person can do and just try something new. I’m going to break away from my old habits and just relax. I will try to have great friendships with the people in my life, but when something I disagree with comes up, or if they're doing something stupid with their life, I'm just going to RELAX and let it go. With this new trait I'm trying to develop im sure it's going to be hard. But i figure it might be worth it. So tonight I'm going to have a dinner with her. I've no idea why she would suggested that but hope everything would be fine....

feeling lost at the moment

2008-12-02T20:13:00.006+08:00

I can't seem to find my place in this world,no matter how hard I try,no matter how much I give,I always end up alone..and unhappy. I guess until now I have not learned the gift of true and unconditional love..to love someone to the fullest without expecting the same in return..to love and make sacrifices even if it means giving up your own happiness for the sake of your love one..to love and let go if freedom is the only way for them to have the best in life. No,still I am blinded by mere possesiveness,selfishness and greed. For I can only be loved truely when I learn to love myself..I still have a very long way to go..a journey to conquer...and hopefully someday I'll be able to win this battle against myself.

From an old junk into a luxury ride...

2008-12-01T13:06:00.010+08:00

What old junk am I supposed to say here? It's a Toyota Crown. It's a very old skool ride and I think it cost a few Ks now. Well done to James from KL to show everyone that what a crown can transform into. He actually owns a Toyota Altis and heavily modded VIP style to that ride but he sold it and bought a crown. Being humiliated and looked down on his sudden change ride, it's just wouldn't stopped him from going through this project. Let's just see what did he do on this old junk...

Well, what do you think when you saw this ride? Here's how he pimped his ride step by step.. even though it takes a year to complete all the hard works but it really pays off at last.

At first, he bought a half cut ...

then he took out the old engine and sprayed inside the engine bay...

After sprayed, he put the 1G-Supercharger engine and the digital meter...

then slowly upgrade 18"Fabulous 5 holes front 8.5jj & rear 9.5jj rims

rear bumper and rear light converted to royal salon bumper

changed his 4 doors and time to custommade babe...

after all the works done, this is the complete looks.. one word "YENG!!"

the proud owner with his badass ride...

this video was shooted by James himself... enjoy yourself!!

a sad song...

2008-11-30T19:54:00.004+08:00

When I read Joan's blog about A-Lin songs, i recalled a song which was sang by the same person. I have no idea what song title was it but it really touches me. I heard this song when I was working last few weeks ago and it is a really damn sad song.

As I sit here tonight I am going through my thoughts through my life and wondering where the hell did I go wrong? Wondering.......... Am I really alone or is it just me thinking too much? So here's the song that I keep hearing over and over again :(

Dreams, Faith, Hope, Success, Trust, Life...

2008-11-29T13:35:00.005+08:00

Dreams are like raindrops, if you don't mind getting wet, take some chances and start catching them. Don't listen to anyone who dismisses what you dream of, those dreams are precious and unique, and are your guides to happiness. If it's worth a dream, then remember it's never worth a comprimise, as a dream that flows from a determined heart and mind can never be frozen by skepticism, adversity or doubt, just like a fresh spring cannot be frozen in winter.

Faith in yourself and in god is paramount. Those who trust in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything; worries end where faith begins. Believe and have faith in your instincts and capabilities, remember that gold becomes purer and more worthy once it's passed through fire. A seed shows faith in mother nature, and embraces the harsh elements to grow into a strong and beautiful tree.

Hope, always hope.... for yourself, the people you know and for strangers.Hope that people find their path, and are not afraid of taking the wrong turn now and then, we should never be afriad of making beautiful mistakes, we should find hope in our weaknesses. Never lose hope, when you feel as though you are, remember that tears soften your heart, wash your eyes, allowing them to sparkle and focus again on achieving your dreams. Do not be afraid to cry, and express your emotions, you cannot close something until you've opened it - therefore you cannot hope to move forward until you're at peace with the past and present.

Success does not come to us if we fear failure, a true measure of success is not in achieving something first time around, but in rising after falling. Success is searching and discovering your passion and living it. Our souls do not desire fame and wealth, nor are they hungry for power. Our souls crave meaning, a sense that we have understood how we want to live ..... in order to make our existance and our lives matter. Success is in knowing that this world is a little bit richer for us having passed through it.

Trust in yourself, trust in your dreams, but most importantly.... trust people, trust should be like the feeling of a small baby who laughs and smiles as you throw him in the air, because he knows you will catch him. Trust that God will catch you.

Life can give you a thousand reasons to cry, lose hope, forget your dreams, lose faith, and ultimately fail to succeed but YOU can give life a thousand reasons to smile by keeping the faith, hoping for the dreams, trusting in yourself and others, and succeeding against the odds :)

It's tough to get through all of these so most important is you gotta need Carlsberg!!!

I'm wondering..

2008-11-28T21:52:00.004+08:00

I dont kno, but lately, i have been thinking...alot.

About life, about love, about unrealistic goals, everything, and i feel like theres a part of me that I still do not understand. The part that gets mixed up with words and actions, the part of me that has me so high that hates having to come down for anyone. The part of me that wants to love freely and unknowingly without other thoughts. I dont know where these thoughts come from. Is it from watching to much television and having high expectations out of everyday people? Is it listening to music and feeling the emotions hidden within and wanting to feel that way with a person? I just wish that I can have what I need. The thing that money cant buy. The things that would keep me going and give me some purpose... some meaning to this lie called my life. Someone that listens even though what i speak makes no sense at all. Wipe my tears instead of adding to them.Someone that keeps me safe and wants to keep me safe always. Someone that is proud to be with me. Someone that you can mean alot to without a second WONDER. I ask myself again...what is love? Is it this? I want it to be? But my mind feels cheated and underappreciated, unsatisfied and tired. What do i do?

To be in love is one thing, but to always wonder, leaves me questioning everything

Do these people in my mind exist? Do they have a heart the pumps such vital blood through their veins? Are they soulful? Are they looking for someone like me too? Or am I right where Im supposed to be?

*sigh* I should get back to sleep rather than thinking all of this crap..

Meanest Harrier finally on the mag...

2008-11-27T13:44:00.007+08:00

Why Miri doesn't sell Extreme Magazine? I've been searching for the whole place but couldn't find any one of it. If it was selling, I'll definitely grab one of it as a collection. Well, finally Bandrew's ride has finally published in the Extreme magazine. Thanks VIP James for sharing these pictures. Anyway, Congratulations bro!!!

The Meanest Nissan GTR35 in Miri

2008-11-26T11:56:00.008+08:00

I feel honoured to post another ride from Nissan Car Owners Club Miri (NCOC) in my blog. Don't ask me if I got the permission from the owner to post this or not. Mostly people who bought this kind of expensive cars only to drive and show off but to this owner, his passion for upgrading and modding got my inspiration all the time. All I can say, this is probably the most eye catching car in Miri now. Kena Toto also wont buy this car ah......

I'm back...!!!

2008-11-25T19:51:00.006+08:00

Finally I'm back! My laptop was infected by virus so I've sent to one of my friends to help me solve the problem. Now everything was fine and thanks god everything went so smoothly. Last Saturday my item has arrived and blame on Googookid on the same time because he is the one who poisoned me with the Japanese magazine. Luckily Mishiyan from Diamond Zeus VIP club, helped me to buy the magazine at Konikuniya and send it to me. Now I'm waiting for him to help me buy the K-car magazine. Thank you once again bro!!!

Items arrived on Saturday...

Latest StyleWagon Club magazine....

Inside got free sticker thats why it poisoned me.. already sticked some of it on my ride. Most important things is I've learn something inside the magazine. Now I've planned on a big project on my ride.

ANOTHER CAR STOLEN! Rudy's Purple AE86 Levin!

2008-11-20T12:40:00.003+08:00

Looks like the thieves are at it again..This time its Rudsdrifts/Rudfreeze (Rudy Norman) Purple AE86. Taken from his house this morning at 4 am and was last seen of the NorthSouth Highway heading towards Johore. Please anyone if you see an AE86 in bright purple spotting a GT wing with the number plate BCG 9660, please contact (Ariff) immediately 0122109865 thanks. RM5000 wil be rewarded to those who found it!

Coincidencly, the car was heading to Johore too,the same thing happened to Russwestwood Skyline. Maybe this is the same syndicate that happens to be stealing all this JDM cars, so lookout for it!

If you run a blog, or website, and you’d like to help us spread the news, do duplicate this post.

Funny video...

2008-11-20T09:31:00.014+08:00

Last night i went for a cup of drinks with my bunch of buddies and when i was a lil bored, i took my friend's phone and started browsing his phone to look for some video. Don't think that I was searching for porn video OK... then when I saw the video in his phone, I started to burst laughing so loud and I showed to her and the other guys to view. This video is so damn funny!! This would definitely cheer up someone I knew so I started to grab that video and share here...

Ha Ha Ha Ha ! ! ! ! ! ! That sheep scared the hell out of the group... wakakakakaka!!!

last sunday ? ? ? ?

2008-11-19T12:45:00.006+08:00

Just remember i got took some pics last sunday on my lasap phone. When Smallee went to my shop, surely he'll ask me " Have you tried your sis ride before?" The answer is YES... OK, here's the chance. I've gotta send this ride to Jerry for some project.

added the Wald kits and TIEN abs recently..

rolling on 19"

who's that guy sitting there? hehehehe..

i'm going to change phone soon... cant stand owes taking blurry pics. Maybe it's my photo skill... gonna learn from Lasapka soon.

Oh Yes!! Finally my stock has arrived again.. wonder who's the buyer... waiting for another item coming soon. This poison is specially for Rabbitx. hahahahahah

White LED carplate frame...

Smoking...not a sin afterall..

2008-11-18T20:19:00.006+08:00

My parents think I Don't do it, My Girl thinks I left it, World is against it, I am not sure if I am addicted.. but for me its a part of Life as of now..SMOKING 10 MINS OF RELAXED LIFE

I remember I started smoking a year back. I started at 6 per day...I still stick to that...never really required more..perhaps never even less... depends on my mood...

Smoking for me is a weaker form of masturbation. Both seperate you from the existing world in your mind and the concluded world is much more relaxed.

Ever imagined what you feel when you do it on a cold day in an open space. Ever Imagined the relaxation you get when you do it sitting beside a window when its raining outside. You feel like a Halcyon. You feel as if your mind is in control... you can take decisions which are full of patience. You can acutally come to know who you are...

ill effects of smoking cannot be neglected. I do not as such recommend it. But ones who are able to do it in control and not do it for long can benefit from it...

I do not write this on behalf of every smoker on this planet. I write it because i personally feel it...

The Meanest Proton Perdana in Malaysia

2008-11-18T11:03:00.011+08:00

In the world of VIP styling, not only International manufactured cars only can be a VIP baller. Seriously this is the first Proton Perdana into VIP styling so far I’ve seen in Malaysia. Thumbs up for Fusa(JP) from Johor Bahru. He had use a lot of effort to get the best stance and fitment and now, finally he has already achieved the VIP status… Congrats to you bro!!!

From a stock ride to a vip styled bad ass ride..

rolling on 20" Spirit Vientray

wondering how could he drive with that height?
here's the answer...

using air suspension from japan

The moment of measuring the ride height...

Side view of one side with air sus with full slam, another still with Tein adjustable.

The front was ok just too low, cover up to rim lip is good enough, if not looks like a bit DUB... so in front make a bit higher...

But there is one problem occur when the rear slams down...due to his oversized rims... The original bumper mounting body sit on top of its tyre and the bumper bracket will hit its tyre & rim...so have to do some mods inside including cutting and shift the bumper bracket...

Front with full slam

Rear with full slam but over low, after this adjust a bit higher again

Overall slam view

Can you see some CAMBERED effect?

The front & the rear wheel auto cambered when full slam

Uncontrollable Feelings

2008-11-17T20:01:00.003+08:00

Im sitting here at my computer overwhelmed by the many emotion that are overpowering me. I try to resist these feelings but they seem to control me. I never knew that love could be such a dominant feeling. How can it feel so amazing but cause such heartache. Things and feeling that I thought had been left in the past seem to have always living in the present but I had been in denial thinking that would make those feelings go away. And you know what else kills me about love is the fact that my feelings arent returned..at least not anymore. So I sit up at night, a servitude to love and wonder what am I going to do if i dont get my hearts desire. Im fighting a battle and slowly losing while my heart is dying. My heart got robbed but I am an accomplice to that because I allowed it to happen. My eyes cant shut at night because im wondering what it is going to take for me to come out victorious..I guess time will only tell.

I love Bond movies, this is not a Bond movie!

2008-11-17T11:56:00.003+08:00

I am a devote bond movie lover. I love the action, the story line, and character development. However, quantum of solace, had boring action scenes, a terrible story line, and cliche character development. Last night me and my bunch of buddies watched “the decaf”, “the diet” or “the zero calories” version of James Bond. James Bond without the substance of James Bond. Plus, is this really highest budgeted bond film?? are you kidding me??? You know economy is in trouble when you see a James Bond movie with:

- No transformer sports car

- No funny gadgets or a modified wrist watches

- No Miss Money penny and witty flirtatious conversation

- No Q to present the imaginative new technology, to tell you well known science fact and express his warm and fatherly concern of 007’s welfare

- No new visionary spy technology, just boring product placements for products that lack consumer luster.

- No humor, I guess the writers were on strike when the movie scenario was written.

- People left out of the movie, action scenes too fast to follow

- Special effect below mediocre with no imagination

- No dialog that you can quote and make fun with after the movie

- No catchy phrase to soften the accidental death of the villain.

I can enumerate forever the bad features of another “off-the-mill” spy movie. The movie sucks almost as “On Her Majesty’s Secret Service”. This time is not the actors, but the scenario, the bad product placements and the “stiff” dialogs.

If you want to see unbalanced movie with lots of violence, no humor or imagination go for it, spend your money on another mediocre product cranked out from a large corporation. My recommendation “wait until the movie goes on cable”.

Oh, did I mention no lasers and exotic underwater scuba scenes? I still wonder where all the money went they claim was spent.

Which side is your fuel filler cap?

2008-11-17T11:18:00.004+08:00

Have you ever arrived at the petrol station wondered...hmmm, which side is the fuel filler cap?
One normal solution is normally to stick the head out the window, strain the neck and look, try to see in the side mirrors or even get out of the car!

Well ladies and gentlemen, here's sharing with a little secret so you will no longer look like Ace Ventura on your way to the gas station or put your neck at risk of discomfort or injury.

If you look at your fuel gauge, you will see a small icon of a fuel pump? The handle of the fuel pump will extend out on either the left or right side of the fuel pump? If your tank is on the left, the handle will be on the left? If your tank is on the right, the handle will be on the right (see photo). It is that simple!

14th November : Skyline R34 GTR Was Stolen ! ! !

2008-11-16T16:53:00.009+08:00

Join The Search and you might be rewarded with of Rm30,000 or Rm52,000

A Zerotohundred.com member for years, Russwestwood’s R34 Skyline GTR was stolen. Right from the comfort of the GTR’s parking lot at the basement of Russ’s apartment in Damansara Perdana. Russ is currently out of the country on business in Egypt.

In 14th November at about 3:45pm Russ’s wife, Nicole received an SMS Alert from the car alarm company notifying of a rapid arm and disarming of the GTR’s security system.

Curious, Nicole rushed home and was shocked to find the GTR missing from its usual spot. Unfortunately the security guards weren’t aware of what happened. Coincidentally the CCTV system weren’t working at the time. Though other relevant people within the area are currently being interviewed for leads.

You can help simply by: notifying the police or 012-6900120 or Me or even trying to be a hero, if you do come across any hints, or better, a visual sighting of a:

Skyline R34 GTRColour: Bayside Blue

Number plate: JHM 35

Places to also look:

Industrial Areas, Warehouses

Backlanes of shops and houses

Doesn’t matter if you’re in Penang or Johor. Thieves travel.

Fast.Chop Shops / JunkyardsSuspicious Areas?

A Reward Statement from the owner, Russwestwood himself:

"I want to make this clear that there is a RM52,000 (USD15,000) cash reward for anyone who can help me get my car back.

If you have any contacts or know of anyone or friends in the shipping line, customs, port authorities whom can locate and stop the shipping process, inform the police, help stop my car from being shipped out, the cash reward will be yours.

If you know anyone at the border checkpoints to Thailand also, there might be a chance of it moving across the border.

Personally I feel that the car will be shipped out, as the car was stolen whole with no damage left from the crime scene. And if it is shipped, it should be by container. Anyone with information on shipping especially with the regards to container shipping, please help.

The chassis number is: BNR34-004751

The engine number is: RB260725904

Once again, it is a blue Nissan Skyline GTR.

Should the car be found almost bare and stripped down, there is still a reward of RM30,000. So please, help me find my car."

Please take a good look at what the car currently looks like. Some shots of it blending into the public:

The car was last seen heading south, after Melaka. Please keep an eye out for Russ' baby. He put in a lot of time, effort, and needless to say, money, to build this beast.

And today's latest statement:

"Latest news!! MY car has been seen in Singapore!! Pls inform all your Singaporean Contacts and Singapore Forums... The car was there on Friday, the day it got stolen. We already lodged a report in Singapore. If anyone sees it, dial 999 in Singapore. 100% confirmed it is my car as the guy who seen it can explain 100% in detail about things no one would know about my car from forums or blogs. It was there on friday 100%, but if its there now or not, I can only hope so. But chance is still quite high, might still be in Sg. Should be a different colour as seen in Yishun Industrial Park near those spray paint shops being prep for paint. Most probably Silver.. It could be anywhere now or maybe even gone. But we still have a chance!! Quick, time is running out.... All Singaporean Customs and shipping agents should be made aware, spread the news on the SG forums, come on guys, this is probably our last chance!"

The meanest Harrier in Malaysia

2008-11-16T13:16:00.004+08:00

Probably the meanest and the lowest so far!!!

Owned by Bandrew from Vip Style Society's The Black Phantom.

Whadaya think bout this???

Nice MV that touches me...

2008-11-14T21:17:00.005+08:00

Seriously this song is really nice and the MV was really touching. At least they are together at the end also. This song plus the MV really touches me. Sweet!!!!

Even though, neither I know how to read Chinese words nor hear Korean language but sometimes when I was working at my shop, I always got hear the songs that was played on the screen. This song by Rain was really nice. Once I've browse on Youtube, I finally get to know what he sang because there were English subtitle and the MV was indeed truly touches me. One of the sad ending again. Well, I've planned to create Cacat.F.M but didn't have the time for that yet...

Thanks you for your kayponess..

2008-11-14T18:49:00.005+08:00

Today she called me and asks “Are you too free online writing our matter on your blog is it?" Well, my reaction just like...

OK, this is not the first time and I knew who told her what i write on my blog. Hey! Remember that this is my blog and I've got my right to write any shit here so if you want to read, just read and shut the fuck up. I blog my matter out not want to let everyone to sympathy me... Its just want to share with my friends who I can't easily meet all the time so please la...!!!

I believe this problem not only me who experienced before also. I earlier had known I shouldn't write my personal stuff in my blog. Damn...no privacy at all.

Anyway, thank you for your kayponess. I just started going back as normal with her and just because of these I got fuck up again...and good timing some more, I was feeling not well and I'm all alone now. Thanks!!!

For those who would say me uncivilized or what for writing foul language here. Just fuck off if you don't like to read because this is my BLOG. Think about it if you were on my position now.

I'm fine now....

2008-11-12T18:51:00.004+08:00

Thanks for everyone's concern...

cacatkia is back to action now!!!

This has been a tough couple of days, yet the more things that seem to be happening, the stronger I am beginning to feel, the more I want to stick to my guns and really get my shit together. In order to make my world right, I have to fix what I perceive as wrong.

So anyway, as tough as I think my last two days have been, there are sooooo many who have it soooo hard. I will keep them in my prayers and I pray with everything I have things start to improve in this country. For all of you, I pray you are not being hit by hard times and if you are, I pray you pull through and are all the stronger because of it instead of despite it....more life lessons....for as long as we live, we keep learning them, living them and becoming better because of them :)

what should I do??

2008-11-11T20:37:00.007+08:00

From all my recent post, I wasn't trying to get any sympathy from anyone. It's just too many things happen to me these few days with her. I don’t know how to express myself here so I think I should find some poem that suits what I feel. It's been 4yrs with her and sometimes I just think does these all relationship worth or not?

Sometimes i really need her beside me when I was sad but she wasn’t there... all I heard from her when i picked her up from work was tired...tired…tired!! But when her friends called her to go out, she went out with them. What am I for her? Am I just a material guy who needs when she wants you then dump away when she doesn’t want you? Maybe I'm just an useless guy after all... I'm not that important like old days anymore.... What am I !??

I don’t know what is going on in my relationship anymore. She has been acting weird, it seems like everything I do annoys her, she complains about everything. She isn't very affectionate with me anymore. I've gotten so depressed lately from all this garbage with this relationship...I don't know if she is thinking about breaking up with me or not. She sometimes says she will split because she can't stand this or that, but then later tells me she would never leave me.

I tried to tell her yesterday how much I was hurting, but she just got mad and yelled. So I wrote a message that I = worthless, meaning less, piece of trash....and that she = important, meaningful, worthwhile. Then she just replied, "Why did you do that?" I told her why, then she said, "Oh my god come on this is so stupid!" She never talked to me about my feelings. I don’t want to be without her because I love her, but lately I have been feeling like I'm single anyway, and I really feel like she doesn’t care...maybe I should move on?

Who you think I am?

2008-11-11T12:27:00.001+08:00

So here I am again,

No-one beside me,

Nobody wants me in their life,

Except the dead and lost,

I've forgotten how to be myself,

Through being too individual,

You won't understand,

Or comprhend,

How I'm feeling what you don't,

So don't attempt to waste your time,

I'll be gone,

From all that you know,

For years to come,

You'll thank me for my sacrifice,

For saving your soul,

I'm not the man you think I am.

to my angel...

2008-11-10T22:19:00.003+08:00

I,
Am a lonely man,
Without you to talk to,
I need you here,
To keep me sane,
I neeed your comforting words,
and your heartfelt hugs,
You understand my emotion,
Like it was your own,
You are my friend,
My companion in spirit,
My keeper,
My Angel,
So please come back,
Leave all your woes behind,
Real life is not as fun,
As a few hours spent,
Your me - your one.

I've found these lovely poem just specially for angel_lina...

too many times...

2008-11-10T19:06:00.002+08:00

Too many times,

I've cried myself to sleep,

Too many times,

I've shut myself away,

Too many times,

I've lost control,

Too many times,

I've lied to you,

Too many times,

I've worshipped this blade,

Too many times,

I've hidden inside,

Too many times,

I've sat and watched,

Too may times,

I've not asked for help,

Too many times,

I've cursed my faults,

Too many times,

I've not told my problems,

Too many times,

You haven't listened

Too many times,

I've written this note

what is this?

2008-11-10T13:53:00.005+08:00

I hear the water drip,

getting slower,

in tune with my heartbeat,

as I’m laying hereignoring the pounding on the door.

Can you hear me cry?

I wonder, what is this?

I breathe

I see

I smell

I taste

yet I’m not alive.

But maybe life isn't for everyone.

Infatuated...

2008-11-10T11:49:00.007+08:00

Infatuated.

I smile, I can't stop thinking of you.

What is this that I feel?

It's powerful,

Is it real?

This hold that you have on me,

although... I don't mind.

It's new.

Where did you come from?

I think of being with you,

mind, body, soul.

Especially body.

Sinking.

"You're one in a million",

"I worry about falling hard for you"

I must protect my heart.

Or rather, this has suddenly gotten old.

Your face, your presence.

You.

Hmmm, the feelings have gone.

And now, so must I.

my sad heart

2008-11-09T19:44:00.007+08:00

My sad heart,I really love you.

But I really do not know

How to make you happy.

I am trying so hard.

I have been trying so hard.

I shall be trying The same way.

But alas, my sad heart,

Will I ever see you happy

Even once in this

Undivine and hostile incarnation?

secret recipe again...

2008-11-08T22:45:00.009+08:00

This is my second attempt to come here to eat because my friend who haven comes here before wanted to try also. Since they want to go to try, I'll join them to see if their service is good or not this time. Surprisingly, the service was quite good and the girl works there quite pretty also...hehe Maybe they've read all the comments on the Mcnet and had improved the services and the foods quality. I thinks that I'm lucky because the first time I've gone there, the service wasn't bad also... now also same...hehe

Cappuccino cheese cake

New York cheese cake

Chocolate cheese cake

White Chocolate Macadamia.

It was topped with white chocolate and it melts in your mouth... Nice one!

spicy chicken corn pie

original chicken corn pie

spaghetti bolognese cheese

Singapore laksa

Kid's burger meal

Ice blended cappuccino

Jasmine Green tea

Well, this tom yam wasn't suppose to be the same like what I’ve ordered when the first time I’ve gone there that time. It didn't have those tom yam flavors at all so I asked the worker to change it. Try look below the pics that already changed different right?

ah yaw's lil sista, ah yaw and kok

while i was taking some pictures, she ate my Singapore laksa...

No mood to eat that kind of tom yam..... fail !!

Ah liang taste the tom yam that already changed.. he can't stand any spicy food since he's sick some more..

ke fatt enjoying his spaghetti..

19 items for RM185.40... worth or not??

the more you eat the more service charge you gonna pay.. kinda unfair for me because just ask for order and send the food their gonna cost that much... If I self-service my self, would it be any cheaper or no charge at all?

dear cigar lovers....

2008-11-08T11:56:00.002+08:00

Actually this one just came last week ago but not so much people know yet. It's a new package for Dunhill lovers.. Too bad the Menthol Lights didn't have any new design yet. I'm not couraging anyone to smoke here so don't blame me even though that I'm a smoker.. hehe

Dare to smoke like this????? A new way to suicide.. hehe

what a bad day.......

2008-11-07T18:43:00.004+08:00

Today was kinda bad day for me.. business today wasn't that good and yet i was a little sick. Last night i went to bed very late because i was chatting msn with my online gf. That make me a little dizzy today. That wasn't a bad news yet. I was happy to receive my stuff today but what makes me no mood now was the LED wasn't working. Actually i helped a guy to order it but too bad he's gonna wait another week. He's been waiting this for two weeks already and now he's gonna wait again. I hope this stuff could be return so I can change another one. If not, I'll be poorer to buy another one to pay the guy. I got two more coming and hopefully it was nothing bad happen to it. Even I go to bath just now, my nose bleed some more..haih.. sick liao....

So happy to receive today but........

the LED already got burn at the side there... haih..

If cant return, I'm gonna buy another one to pay that guy who was so desperate for it..

Change We Need..

2008-11-06T21:51:00.003+08:00

IF there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible; who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time; who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer.

It’s the answer told by lines that stretched around schools and churches in numbers this nation has never seen; by people who waited three hours and four hours, many for the very first time in their lives, because they believed that this time must be different; that their voice could be that difference.

It’s the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Latino, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled – Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been a collection of Red States and Blue States: we are, and always will be, the United States of America.

It’s the answer that led those who have been told for so long by so many to be cynical, and fearful, and doubtful of what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope of a better day.

It’s been a long time coming, but tonight, because of what we did on this day, in this election, at this defining moment, change has come to America.

I just received a very gracious call from Senator McCain. He fought long and hard in this campaign, and he’s fought even longer and harder for the country he loves. He has endured sacrifices for America that most of us cannot begin to imagine, and we are better off for the service rendered by this brave and selfless leader. I congratulate him and Governor Palin for all they have achieved, and I look forward to working with them to renew this nation’s promise in the months ahead.

I want to thank my partner in this journey, a man who campaigned from his heart and spoke for the men and women he grew up with on the streets of Scranton and rode with on that train home to Delaware, the Vice President-elect of the United States, Joe Biden.

I would not be standing here tonight without the unyielding support of my best friend for the last sixteen years, the rock of our family and the love of my life, our nation’s next First Lady, Michelle Obama. Sasha and Malia, I love you both so much, and you have earned the new puppy that’s coming with us to the White House. And while she’s no longer with us, I know my grandmother is watching, along with the family that made me who I am. I miss them tonight, and know that my debt to them is beyond measure.

To my campaign manager David Plouffe, my chief strategist David Axelrod, and the best campaign team ever assembled in the history of politics – you made this happen, and I am forever grateful for what you’ve sacrificed to get it done.

But above all, I will never forget who this victory truly belongs to – it belongs to you.
I was never the likeliest candidate for this office. We didn’t start with much money or many endorsements. Our campaign was not hatched in the halls of Washington – it began in the backyards of Des Moines and the living rooms of Concord and the front porches of Charleston.

It was built by working men and women who dug into what little savings they had to give five dollars and ten dollars and twenty dollars to this cause. It grew strength from the young people who rejected the myth of their generation’s apathy; who left their homes and their families for jobs that offered little pay and less sleep; from the not-so-young people who braved the bitter cold and scorching heat to knock on the doors of perfect strangers; from the millions of Americans who volunteered, and organized, and proved that more than two centuries later, a government of the people, by the people and for the people has not perished from this Earth. This is your victory.

I know you didn’t do this just to win an election and I know you didn’t do it for me. You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime – two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century. Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us. There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after their children fall asleep and wonder how they’ll make the mortgage, or pay their doctor’s bills, or save enough for college. There is new energy to harness and new jobs to be created; new schools to build and threats to meet and alliances to repair.

The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even one term, but America – I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there. I promise you – we as a people will get there.

There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won’t agree with every decision or policy I make as President, and we know that government can’t solve every problem. But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree. And above all, I will ask you join in the work of remaking this nation the only way it’s been done in America for two-hundred and twenty-one years – block by block, brick by brick, calloused hand by calloused hand.

What began twenty-one months ago in the depths of winter must not end on this autumn night. This victory alone is not the change we seek – it is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were. It cannot happen without you.

So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism; of service and responsibility where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves, but each other. Let us remember that if this financial crisis taught us anything, it’s that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers – in this country, we rise or fall as one nation; as one people.

Let us resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long. Let us remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House – a party founded on the values of self-reliance, individual liberty, and national unity. Those are values we all share, and while the Democratic Party has won a great victory tonight, we do so with a measure of humility and determination to heal the divides that have held back our progress. As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, “We are not enemies, but friends…though passion may have strained it must not break our bonds of affection.” And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn – I may not have won your vote, but I hear your voices, I need your help, and I will be your President too.

And to all those watching tonight from beyond our shores, from parliaments and palaces to those who are huddled around radios in the forgotten corners of our world – our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared, and a new dawn of American leadership is at hand. To those who would tear this world down – we will defeat you. To those who seek peace and security – we support you. And to all those who have wondered if America’s beacon still burns as bright – tonight we proved once more that the true strength of our nation comes not from our the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth, but from the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity, and unyielding hope.

For that is the true genius of America – that America can change. Our union can be perfected. And what we have already achieved gives us hope for what we can and must achieve tomorrow.
This election had many firsts and many stories that will be told for generations. But one that’s on my mind tonight is about a woman who cast her ballot in Atlanta. She’s a lot like the millions of others who stood in line to make their voice heard in this election except for one thing – Ann Nixon Cooper is 106 years old.

She was born just a generation past slavery; a time when there were no cars on the road or planes in the sky; when someone like her couldn’t vote for two reasons – because she was a woman and because of the color of her skin.

And tonight, I think about all that she’s seen throughout her century in America – the heartache and the hope; the struggle and the progress; the times we were told that we can’t, and the people who pressed on with that American creed: Yes we can.

At a time when women’s voices were silenced and their hopes dismissed, she lived to see them stand up and speak out and reach for the ballot. Yes we can.

When there was despair in the dust bowl and depression across the land, she saw a nation conquer fear itself with a New Deal, new jobs and a new sense of common purpose. Yes we can.

When the bombs fell on our harbor and tyranny threatened the world, she was there to witness a generation rise to greatness and a democracy was saved. Yes we can.

She was there for the buses in Montgomery, the hoses in Birmingham, a bridge in Selma, and a preacher from Atlanta who told a people that “We Shall Overcome.” Yes we can.

A man touched down on the moon, a wall came down in Berlin, a world was connected by our own science and imagination. And this year, in this election, she touched her finger to a screen, and cast her vote, because after 106 years in America, through the best of times and the darkest of hours, she knows how America can change. Yes we can.

America, we have come so far. We have seen so much. But there is so much more to do. So tonight, let us ask ourselves – if our children should live to see the next century; if my daughters should be so lucky to live as long as Ann Nixon Cooper, what change will they see? What progress will we have made?

This is our chance to answer that call. This is our moment. This is our time – to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American Dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth – that out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope, and where we are met with cynicism, and doubt, and those who tell us that we can’t, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people:

Yes We Can. Thank you, God bless you, and may God Bless the United States of America.

Walao!! When my blog become politic owh? Seriously, i really admire him. Love his speech and does a Malaysian government thingy would said like that? i think nope...

White Stallion Fabulous A32

2008-11-06T13:12:00.005+08:00

Awwww!!! I'm still waiting for my stuff to arrive but still haven received yet.. *sigh* !!!!What impressed me was when i saw this ride in the forum these few days. Damn!! This ride was really nice and got Japanese feeling dude. Too bad the model doesn't matches the ride at all but on that day, it was quite strong wind when they were taking pictures plus the girl wearing a mini skirt dress. So u guys know when the strong wind blow that time...keke....nampak macam tak nampak...wah sei...!!! If i was there sure syok! keke...So this month issue will be posted on Extreme Mag.

Specification

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-Customized Fabulous Bodykit

-Fabulous Profound 20" Front: 9jx offset 38+ 245/35/R20 Rear: 10jx offset 48+ 245/35/R20

-JDM limited edition headlight

-Fabulous Mascot

-Fabulous Fog lamp

-Fabulous Muffle

-Custom Bonnet and Windscreen spoiler

-Tanabe Air Cobra(Hybrid Suspension)

-Fabulous Emblem *completed by Bidtrade.com.my/Transcolor Refinishing/Central Cushion/JL Auto Ent/GT Motorcraft

Introducing the White Stallion Fabulous A32 from VSS.

Extreme Magazine Photo Shooting

my name is....

2008-11-05T11:22:00.006+08:00

I think there's a lot of people quite curious to know why i use cacatkia as a nickname, right? Well, this nickname I've been used since i was at Form 4 so means its 7 years already!! cacatkia is just a funny nickname that i'd used in CounterStrike back then and it's quite funny if you can hear some people there screaming my nick so loud at the cyber cafe. A lot of people that i know only will call me cacatkia. They still doesn't know my real name or English name yet. My English name is Wayne but not a lot people knows even my buddies doesn't knows that too. Well, Wayne was given by a member at Vip Dream Club from Shanghai,China. Her name is 安雅 ( Enya). Actually i didn't use this kind of English name because normally people just call me cacat...!! I still prefer people call me cacat or cck because i already get used to that.. hehe!!

I still got the conversation from the forum..keke

Enya : just want to ask what is (cacatkia) the nickname so cute!!!!any want can help?

Me: cute leh~ u're the 1st girl says my nick cute.. it means disabled guy ~ do you hav an english name ?

Enya : why you said your self like that? not good! i suggest one name for you (wayne) this is more nice for you!! its?i dont have english name, any idea for me?

Kitz : you want english name ? 安雅 = Enya 或 Anya 不错吧..

Enya : 我想 enya 比较好听吧！谢了！！！

This is a picture of her..hehe!!

a night at Coco's....

2008-11-04T12:08:00.004+08:00

I was waiting for my stuff to arrive today from Singapore but the thing was still in Kuching. I think that tomorrow it will be arrive in my hand and another stuff will be arrive in the next week from Singapore also. Today was kind of busy browsing both of the VIP forums and learn something there. Last night i was quite bored so i decided to bring her to Coco's near my housing area for a drink with her. The place was quite nice and the service wasn't bad tho. Sorry for the bad quality of the pics taken because some of the pics was taken by her.

It was quite dark and there is someone sitting beside us so i just simply took photos about it..keke

this is what i've ordered.. Coco's special actually i don't know what name is it because the staff just intoduced me these drinks so i just ordered.

She ordered the orange juice but later she said wanted to drink hot drink..

Lastly the orange juice was in my stomach.. LoL..

go any place also ordered hot lemon tea.. go my shop drink better la

Chicken chop just for her.. i'm a bit full so i just only smoking there..hehe
sadly this pic was taken so blur.. i think its time to change a new phone.. Overall the price costed me 47bucks.. i'm poor now..hehe

Bippu family at last!!

2008-11-03T23:38:00.004+08:00

In view of rising interest in VIP Style, Dzeus VIP Club (hereinafter referred to as "DZ") and Vipstyle Society (hereinafter referred to as "VSS") have came to an agreement that we should join forces to enhance the culture, education, awareness and activities to all VIP Style enthusiast particularly in Malaysia.

It has been agreed that VSS will now be known as VIPSTYLE SOCIETY MALAYSIA (hereinafter referred to "VSSM") representing and being the Bippu Community for all VIP Enthusiast. In doing so, VSSM will no longer be regarded as a "club status" but rather a portal for Bippu Clubs to be part of it.

Similar to Zero to Hundred and VIP Style Cars forum in the US, VSSM will have sub threads to host various VIP Style clubs in it where members of the specific clubs are allow to post topics and TTs which are in the interest to all parties in VSSM. As to date three (3) clubs have confirmed their participation into VSSM and they are The BLACK PHANTOM, WHITE STALLION (both are derived from VSS) and Dzeus VIP Club.

To that effect, members of DZ need not be confused with the current club status as DZ will remain as a club by itself and will continue to have its forum of its own. Members of DZ are free to register themselves over VSSM. Once registered PROPERLY (terms and conditions apply) members of DZ can explore the various threads and topics over VSSM.

We certainly hope, this move will benefit all members of DZ and other clubs in kind as the objective is to promote VIP Style in Malaysia. This will surely open up to many who are still new to the concept, enhancing ties between members of different clubs down to sharing of information as such, getting the latest information of Bippu products, events and of course understanding the TRUE CONCEPT OF VIP STYLE.

We would also like to announce that Diamond Zeus Boutique (hereinafter referred to as "DZB) is the official sponsor of VSSM and certainly we hope to see that the partnership between DZB and VSSM will bring the Bippu Culture in Malaysia to the next level.

So I'll be damn busy these days to browse both forums now and will be quite less on Mcnet also...

A Boy's Love

2008-11-03T19:30:00.003+08:00

Wanted to share a very touching story.. i like this one!!

A good reminder: "Take time to appreciate what you have now."

On the last day before Christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the remaining of the gift I didn't manage to buy earlier.

When I saw all the people there, I started to complain to myself,"It is going to take forever here and I still have so many other places to go.Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year.How I wish I could just lie down, go to sleep and only wake up after it..."
Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section, and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if after all kids really play with such expensive toys.

While looking in the toy section, I noticed a small boy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest. He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad. I wondered who was this doll for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him, "Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?"

The old lady replied, "You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear."

Then she asked him to stay here for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I started to walk toward him and I asked him who did he want to give this doll to."It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her."

I replied to him that may be Santa Claus will bring it to her, after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly.

"No, Santa Claus can not bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there."
His eyes were so sad while saying this.

"My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the doll with her to give it to my sister."

My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said, "I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I come back from the supermarket."Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me, "I also want mummy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me."

I love my mummy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister."
Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.I quickly reached for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy, "What if we checked again, just in case if you have enough money?"

"Ok," he said. "I hope that I have enough."

I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it.There was enough for the doll, and even some spare money.

The little boy said, "Thank you God for giving me enough money."

Then he looked at me and added,"I asked yesterday before I slept for God to make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mummy can give it to my sister. He heard me.""I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mummy, but I didn't dare to ask God too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and the white rose."

"You know, my mummy loves white rose."

A few minutes later, the old lady came again and I left with my trolley. Unfinished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind.

Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck who hit a car where there was one young lady and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to get out of the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away.I couldn't stop myself and went to buy a bunch of white roses and I went to the mortuary where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wish before burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place crying, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that this little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to that day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk man had taken all this away from him.